Monday, July 4, 2011

Charlie, You Can Never Go Back!

When I was in college, I worked at a daycare for a few months to help out a friend. The class I was in charge of loved the movie "All Dogs Go to Heaven" and requested to watch it every time we had a movie day. It's actually a cute movie if you can see past the sub-par animation and since that summer, I find myself still quoting one of my favorite lines from that movie. "Charlie, you can never go back"! Surprisingly, this line has come in handy over the years and I use it most often when I think things may have been better in the past.

But lately, I've been thinking a lot of my junior high and high school days and this phrase has been in the forefront of my mind. Over the years I've heard lots of people ask variations of this question, "If you could go back and do anything over, would you?" My answer for that is always, "no". All the things I've been through and experienced have molded and shaped me.....and without trying to sound egotistical, I like who I am, on the whole.

The world of social networking had made the world from my past so small. The wisdom of age and the confidence gained through living allows conversations and connections with people I might never have spoken to otherwise. And, in the back of my mind is the steady cadence, "Charlie, you can never go back". No matter how many conversations are had, no matter how many confessions are made; those days are past.

But sometimes, when my mind wanders, I can't help but wonder what I would do if I could go back. It's silly, I know but I'm fairly certain what I would do if I could go back. [And, since it's impossible to actually go back, I have added some more impossible things to the mix.]

If I could go back, I would want to do it a la Back to the Future. I'd want to go back as I am today and talk to my 15 year old self. I wouldn't reveal any secrets, but I would tell her that she's on the right track and to be more confident because everything would work out great!

It's true we can never go back, but it's sometimes a good idea to look back to see things and understand how somethings do come full circle. Or, to use an oft-quoted song I love, "To turn, to turn will be our delight, till by turning, turning we come round right"


Jessican said...

Nicely said! I loved that the movie too, and I can hear that voice, with that echoing fade, say, "You can never go baaaaacckkk." I still have that on VHS.

Sometimes I wish that I could have stayed in Colorado or Oklahoma and been closer to my friends and family, but where I am is right for me, right now, and I wouldn't trade that journey for anything.

Aleksandar Momcilovic said...

Hi, I found your post by accident, Googling on the phrase from the movie.
I liked what you wrote very much and could perfectly well identify with it. I myself had a lot of similar fantasies - going back and tutoring myself. I would actually have taught myself mostly to be more brave and less afraid of mistakes. Also to push my lazy self into doing more daring things..

Thanks again for the great read!
Greetings from Norway!